Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Oopss... SORRY

I'm sorry I haven't been blogging at all, I just either don't have enough time or have to much time when my thoughts are clogging my mind and I can't even think about blogging. But I'm back right now and hopefully I won't leave again...
All I want is for you to see my pain, look at my scars and trace them with your fingers. I want you to notice that I am not okay no matter how happy I seem. When I'm with people I'm almost always fine...but haven't you noticed that I haven't been going out as much as I used to? Haven't you noticed that getting up in the morning is the hardest thing for me to? I can barely move anymore my joints feel weak and my muscles ache. All I want is to be happy.. I know you want that for me to but you need to stop thinking about yourself.

I want to watch movies with you and fall asleep in your arms, I want to wear your sweatshirt and live in your cologne, I want you to kiss my forehead and look into my eyes.. I want you to tell me you love me. I want to run away with you... live on the beach and watch the stars every night .. I want to be YOURS and I want YOU to be MINE

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Birthday! Finally 15.

Ditched school today and saw Black Swan, sooo good! I really recommend it

Sunday, December 5, 2010


I dont think i have ever been happier, that night was everything i had imagined and more. I can not stop smiling. I wish I could relive that night soo much. Even if that was a one night thing.. I could have never asked for more. And if it last longer than just one night.. let it be. Let the wind take me. I feel soo good.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Don't you just hate when you, meet someone and instantly fall for them but deep down inside you know it would NEVER happen.

I know I hate it.

I had a little random photo shoot with myself.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010


Today was one of the most emotionally draining days ever. I spoke a little about the names program before, but today was the day I got to participate in it. They took half of the freshman class and put us all in the auditorium at the beginning we heard a couple upperclassmen speak about there experiances in names and Troy, the guy who puts this all together spoke a little bit to. After that we went with our advisories into break out sessions, where we go to a classroom have a snack, talk a little and do a work sheet. Once that was over we went back into the auditorium for 2 and a half hours and we did a thing called open mic. It was when you could go up to the mic and say your story about being bullied, being the perpatrator, the ally, or the bystander. At first Troy told us his story, and then some upperclassmen told theres...and then it was are turn. I was really nervous but I knew that if I didn't go up I would regret it, so I did. I told the story about when I got bullied in 7th grade. I was crying when I finally got my chance to talk, It was a really hard thing for me to do. Even listening to other peoples stories was sad, I think just about the whole auditorium was in tears. It was a wonderful day, I felt like it brought this half of the freshman class closer to each other. I really enjoyed it.
For those of you going tomorrow, wear comfy clothes and get ready for some tears. I think that anyone who is thinking about going SHOULD go, it was a great experiance and I feel a lot better now that I got some things off my chest

Monday, November 29, 2010

Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros - Janglin

I realized some people don't know who Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeros are... well this is one of there songs and also one of my favorites! It is called Janglin.
Im seeing them in concert on saturday and I am so excited, It is going to be crazy, I will definitely post about it after!

Bluegrass festival anyone?


sooo freaking excited.

Thursday, November 25, 2010


eat untill you are about to blow up.

I am thankful for all of my family and friends for always being there for me even though I do pretty stupid stuff. I am thankful for my friends for putting up with craziness and all of my problems and complaints. I love you all. I do not know where I'd be today if it wasn't for you guys, actually I would probably not be here today. So thank you, you guys are my saviors and my life. I am also thankful for all of the people that read my blog, thank you for listening to my every thought and putting up with me when I get into those weird moods and don't blog for like 1000 years. Thank you everybody. Thank you for those watching down on me, we miss you and love you here on earth.
I cannot wait for those mashed potatoes.
Whats your favorite thanksgiving food?

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

I decided I was bored of my old blog design so, I changed it. I'm not so sure if I like it or not but I thought it definitely different. Tell me if you like this one better then the old one or the old one better then this one! If you have time maybe you can go on thecutestblogontheblock.com and tell me if you like a totally different one better!

Thankss xoxo

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

The Names Program

I got a request to write about my feeling towards the Names Program, my advisory is one of the first advisorys to go and to be honest I'm a bit excited for it. I am excited to hear other peoples stories of getting bullied and be able to compare them to my own. I feel like it will really show people that they ARE NOT alone and I know from experiance that a lot of people want to know that. I remember when I was a victim of bullying and I felt so alone, so depressed, so anxious, I felt like NO ONE understood what I was going through and no one could help me no matter how hard they tried. Now I realize that I was never really alone and people all around me could have been going through a similar thing, I just wish I realized that then instead of now. I think that the Names Program will really bring awareness to that and maybe even help any bullying problem that happens in school. I'll post after I go to the program to tell you all about it and maybe I'll even post my own story and maybe you guys can share your own!

I also got another request to post what I write about in my journals on here but I dont know if I'm going to do that because its really personal you know? I may post little parts of it but most likely not all of it!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Suggestions ?

I'm sorry my blog posts have been really short and uninteresting, I just haven't been able to sit down and blog. I think of so many great things I could write about but then I just can't do it. Right now my mind is completely blank. I can't think of 1 little thing that may be interesting for everybody (if anybody) reading this. So please, if you have ANY suggestions comment them or even email them, I would love to hear what YOU want to read about. So just give it a go I would really really appreciate it.

Sooo update on life, I'm learning a new elvis song on guitar and I finished my 10th journal. I just got a new one, and maybe because of this crazy writers block it won't fill up as fast.
This was the last line of my filled up journal I don't know why but I love it so I wanted to share it with you: "But I am done with being nice and I am done with getting good grades, I am breaking free, I am me."

Sunday, November 21, 2010

I'm done regretting the past and I'm ready to live for tomorrow.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

I'm trying to change. I'm trying to be a better person, but then you say all that shit about me and it turns everything around. I thought we where friends, best friends. We've been through so much and then you say that.. are you kidding me?

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Style Guru: giveaway

Hey guys!
My friend Claudia has a super cool fashion blog http://fashionandpoise.blogspot.com/

she is having an awesome give away everyone should check it out ^


Tuesday, November 9, 2010

It's been awhile

I don't know if you have noticed but I have not been blogging lately and that because well, I just have been in one of those funks and I just can't seem to get out of it. People are telling me to blog and I keep saying no. But now I finally am.

I've been in a really weird mood lately, I have been happy but I've also been sad at the same time. ITS SO ANNOYING. People piss me off so much too, and nobody really knows but I am VERY self conscious. I am always worrying about what people think of me and lately just the littlest comments will ruin my whole week. Even when people are joking making fun of me it still gets to me and it really brings me down, even when I KNOW they are joking.
I have been playing guitar a lot. I'm not very amazing at it but when i get in these moods, I really like playing just a few chords and making up words i think my best one lately was just playing the G, E and A chord and singing "I fucking hate peopleeee, they are all soo annoyyingg. School suckkss. I am very boreedd." Literally that is what I sang, well more like talksang.
It's 10:06 right now.
I am so sleepy.

Theatre Class 101:
Today I FINALLY got to preform my monologue, since I was the last person on the list I got to wait 3 lovely school days, and a weekend to perform mine. I know that sounds pretty good because I got extra time to practice but ITS NOT. People told me I did really well, but I felt like I actually did HORRIBLE and I'm not just saying that. I was shaking a little bit and I was sorta nervous which is not like me at all (it must be this mood). I did get an A on it though which is good.

Last but not least, I actually hate that phase because it doesn't make any sense to me. If its last it usually is least. But whatever. What I meant to be saying is I CANNOT WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS. In chorus we started preparing for our winter showcase and its a lot of holiday songs and it just made me SOOO HAPPPYYY.

I am actually about to pass out.
I'll try and blog tomorrow.

Geena Rae

Monday, October 25, 2010

I hate how much I love you
And I hate how much you love her

Why couldn't be just you and me?

The way things used to be.

I love you so much and I wish you still loved me. I don't go a day with out thinking about you and it hurts me to know that you can go days without thinking of me.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Taylor Swift

Hey guys! I don't know if you new this but I am a HUGE Taylor Swift fan. I LOVE HER. She is the 1st on my list of people I want to meet.

I would really like it if you guys bought things from my taylor store to help me win a chance to meet her! thank youu

this is the link to it: http://www.taylorconnect.com/profile/store/3004343

thank you all

loveeee, geennaa

(we had a problem with the link before so I just changed it to another one, it should work now!)

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Courtney Cook

So I have this friend, her name is Courtney Cook. She is a pretty cool girl. She used to have these really cool bunny rabbit teeth but there gone now because she is lame and had to get invisalign. When she sneezes its not just an "AHHHCHOOOO" its a "AHCHOAHCHOAHCHOAHCHOAHCHO" all in a row. I swear it like never ends, but it does make me pee my pants laughing. There was a time in her life where she thought dying her hair BRIGHT RED and not telling anybody was cool...well courtney I'm sorry to say..but it wasn't. I LOVE YOU.

Courtney is like a mind reader she always knows what I'm thinking and feeling, that is why we are such good friends. We've been through a lot together, and I mean A LOT but every little bump in the road brings us closer together. Best friends foreverr.

Courtney If you kill me for doing this...I'm sorta sorry:

7th grade-freshman year...

we made it baby.

REQUESTED: All of the people I miss

(Sorry this is so delayed)
So I'm going to have to split this up in a couple of sections, but here it goes!

Camp: I miss every single one of my camp friends, we where the "crew" as some people would secretly call us (but we found out anyways). These girls are my best friends, they will be the bridesmaids at my wedding, the godmothers to my children, and forever in my heart. I don't go a day without thinking about them or even talking to them. I know that these girls have always got my back, I swear they have been through every little thing with me no matter how much distance there is between us. I trust these girls with my life and there will never be secrets between us.

Boarding school: Two of my best friends went to boarding school this year so this is for both of them.
Laura: We hated each other in 5th grade. But ever since, we have been best friends. I swear you held us all together. We where the REAL GGEM's but with out you i feel as though the L got chopped off and we are now the REA GGEM's. But as you can tell that makes absolutely no sense, so no matter how far the distance, you my darling will always be there. REAL not REA. I love you so much thank you for everything you have helped me through. I am so excited to see you this weekend.

Jon: Well, what can I say. There is just way to much to say I guess, even though your older and we didn't see each other much I can't even explain how much I love you. I have always looked up to you ever since the summer I was going into the 6th grade. That was the first time I set eyes on you, in the gift store. I THOUGHT YOU WHERE SO CUTE. But other then that I realized how much of a cool guy you are. We became best friends so fast, our personalities kind of matched up I guess. We stalked you ex girlfriend that one time...oh god. I think you should listen to me more that girl was a PHYSCO. Anyways, thank you Jon for always being there for me and being the best friend anyone could ask for.

There is one more person, I'm not going to say her name though. We where best friends, I'm sorry it had to end. But please do not think I don't miss you, because I do. Thats it. Thats all I'm going to say.

Thanks guys for requesting so much! Please feel free to give me suggestions on what to write about, challenge me, make me think. Just tell me what YOU want to hear.

I love you all

Thursday, October 7, 2010


A day in the life of Geena:
Morning Routine-
1. wake up at 7
2. get dressed
3. eat
4. brush teeth
5. put makeup on
6. leave at like 7:35ish

School Day-
1. English (I have a great class)
2. Spanish (Its okaay)
3. Theatre Workshop 1 (AMAZING)
4. Lunch (LOVEEE)
5. Resource (study hall)
6-7 (tues, thurs). Biology (fun fun fun lovee it)
7 (mon, wed, fri). Girls Chorus (fuun)
8. Algebra (EWWW)
9. Kenetic Wellness (not bad, good class)

Soo thats basically my day, minus after school stuff which really hasn't started yet.

Things that stress me out: MATH, I am really bad at it, this is my 2nd year in algebra 1.

Happy things: Theatre class, and seeing all my friends

I am excited for my auditions for the frosh/soph musical "The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee" I will be preforming 2 out of the 3 songs they selected for us, they are all from the musical its self. I AM SOO PUMPED.

Going to highschool is actually pretty cool, I like being able to say that I'm a highschooler, it makes me feel more mature. I really don't like school, but I like highschool more then I like middle school or jr. high.

My life is quite interesting, I mean I'm a really interesting person. I am sure there is much more I could say about my day, but this is all I got for now.

I honestly will say that I am in love with fall. The trees are beautiful, it makes me so sad that the changing leaves don't last that long. It's not just the trees that are beautiful though, everything is. You can finally wear those big knit sweaters and those leather boots you have been dying to break in. You can actually wear clothes. Now don't get me wrong I love summer, I love running around half naked and not getting crap for it because, well, its summer! But after awhile that gets boring and you just want to be able to snuggle up into some jeans. Right now I think I'm going fall crazy, except for the fact this chicago weather has been very weird lately, It felt like it was 80 degrees out today! It was really nice but at the same time I really just wanted a little cold breeze and a nice latte.

I'm sorry I haven't been posting as much as I'd like, but with school and everything its getting hard. I also have NOTHING to write about.

soo help me outt?

~Geena Rae

Monday, October 4, 2010

I see pictures of you, with her. I never stop thinking about you and what we had. It was so special, so different. I felt like I was on top of the world when I was with you, now the only feeling I have is invisible. I walk through the halls and see all these couples, they remind me so much of you and I. It had to end, I know it did. Late night fighting and video chat dates just weren't working out. But now that we are growing apart, and barely talk anymore, the more my heart aches. It aches for you, your smile, your laugh, your eyes, your touch. Your everything. I should have known you would get a girl right away, but I guess I still had a feeling you loved me. Now theres me, all alone watching you, well looking at pictures of you and her and everything we had and should have had. I guess I'm to embarrassed to say that I miss you, when I know you don't miss me too. I want you to know that I do miss you, and I want you to know that I do love you. No matter how distant we are I will never forget what we had.

Thats the sad story of my life right there now onto something more exciting:

Sunday I am going to this very well, red carpet sort of event. Its called the 10.10.10 event. Why? well because its on 10.10.10! Now don't get to jealous, its for my church. Its the 50th anniversary of it, but other then that I am excited. I think it is going to be wonderful. I am of course getting a brand new dress for it, which I think I am getting tomorrow so I will try and post some pictures of it and the event of course. Maybe I'll find a new good greek boy to like while I'm there dancing the night away.

Thats it for tonight,

Thursday, September 30, 2010

one confession

my confession is, well there are two many to even count.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Have you ever wondered why the sky is blue or the grass is green? Have you ever wondered how this all came to be?

I miss writing.
I made this blog so I can show my poems and writing off to the world.
But I have had the worst writers block EVER.
I know I have things to write about.
But at the same time I dont.
If that makes sense..?

All I need is a little bit of inspiration :/

Two smileys that describe your life right now



Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Three turn ons

1. PDA

2. Good body

3. Pretty smile

Monday, September 27, 2010

Four turn offs

1. Bad sense of style

2. Bad hair

3. Cocky attitude

4. Focuses on the sexual things and not the actually relationship

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Jon katz

This is my best friend, I miss him. He went away to boarding school so now I never ever see him, but the second he visits I am going to hangout with him every single day.
I love him
besties for life.

Go friends Go

I was just in one of those moods and take a bunch of pictures i liked and put them up. So here you go. Pictures i like of some of my friends and I

Friendsss continuedd


I love my friendsssssssssssss

Five people who mean a lot

1. All of my camp friends

2. All of my wilmette friends (Emily, Emma, Rosemary, Anna, Laura, Megan. Greer)

3. Jon Katz

4. New friends

5. Family

I cant really pick just 5, everybody in my life means a lot to me I LOVE YOU ALL

Saturday, September 25, 2010


Six things you wish you have never done

1. S
2. E
3. V
4. E
5. N

Seven things that cross your mind a lot

1. Do I have homework

2. Is she mad at me

3. Who i like

4. If we'd make a cute couple

5. How I look

6. I need to blog

7. Whats going on in the facebook world right now

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Eight ways to win my heart:

1. Smile a lot

2. Know how to cheer me up

3. Don't base the relationship off of sexual things

4. Love me

5. Don't judge me

6. Be there for me

7. Stand up for me

8. Just be a good guy, and you'll get me :)

Also, I don't care if you drink or smoke but don't try and pressure me into doing things i don't want to, and that also goes for sexual things.. take it slow and be nice.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Nine things about yourself:

1. I am a poet
2. I am a song writer
3. I love to paint
4. My friends are my everything
5. A person I never even met in my life, saved my life. I don't even know her name.
6. I play guitar
7. I sing
8. I love music
9. I have really high anxiety, you don't need to tell me that my hands are shaking I KNOW.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

10 things you want to say to 10 different people

Dear E, Stop pushing up your boobs and acting like you don't

Dear L, I love you and never want to let you go

Dear G, I miss you so much you don't even know

Dear J, I had a secret crush on you for the longest time

Dear A, Why are we the exact same person?

Dear M, Don't stare at me in the hallways and make things all awkward

Dear C, Im so glad your back

Dear J, I don't like you anymore so stop being awkward!

Dear R, I have a puppy dog crush on you..

Dear M, I wish I could tell you how I really felt


Day one: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now

Day two: Nine things about yourself

Day three; eight ways to win your heart

Day Four; Seven things that cross your mind a lot

Day Five: six things you wish you’d never done

Day six: Five people who mean a lot

Day seven: four turn offs

Day eight; three turn on

Day nine: two smiley’s that describe your life right now

Day ten: one confession


Over the summer I had a major addiction to.....
If your wondering what this is, it is a starbucks passion ice tea lemonade (sweetened) I LOVE IT. But it is going out of season soon, so they will not be selling it for much longer :( I do have the recipe though so if I get a huge craving for it I will make it myself! But for now my new addiction is....Arizona pomegranate green ice tea! IT IS WONDERFUL, I love it more then I love arnold palmers..which is another addiction. If you haven't noticed I really like fruity ice tea. So yeah, I have probably 2 of these a day, and the good thing about them is it has A LOT of antioxidants which is very good for you! Also, if you drink one in the morning you get a lot of energy to go through out the long school day.
Just a picture of me in my room,
Cool i know.

peacee outt

Saturday, September 18, 2010

I'm in love with this picture and I just don't know why. It is so beautiful to me, I'm not even sure I know what it is. I love it.

Thursday, September 16, 2010


Sorry I haven't posted in forever!

So I painted this, i know its pretty abstract? Kinda my thing. I like to paint, I'm not very good but I like it!

So If you remember I had a post about a tough decision I had to make! It was choosing between gymnastics and the freshman/sophmore musical! Well i have decided and I am going to do the musical. Why? Well because I'm not asuper athletic person, I've really only done gymnastics before because all other sports I never really liked. Plus, I don't want to be a super athletic highschool student like everyone else, I just want to be me and do what I like. Theatre people are my kinda people, they understand me just like I understand them. We all get along because we have that one thing in common: the passion for theatre. So I think in the end I am going to be really happy with my decision!

School lately has been pretty good, I did HORRIBLE on my science quiz though which had kinda brought my self esteem down, but I got help and I feel a lot better about it now. Who would have known the metric system would cause so many problems in my brain!


I have a serious pig nose obsession!! I LOVE THEM!
Please please please, send in picture or drawings of your pig noses I would love to post them! The winner with the best pig nose will get a prize!!


Saturday, September 11, 2010


“Time is passing. Yet, for the United States of America, there will be no forgetting September the 11th. We will remember every rescuer who died in honor. We will remember every family that lives in grief. We will remember the fire and ash, the last phone calls, the funerals of the children.” - George W. Bush.

Its been 9 years since this great tradiy of 9/11 happened, and people still live with grief and sorrow. But I want to take a minute to point out not only the unlucky lives that died on the plane, but the brave rescuers that put there lives on the line just to save as many people as they could. Some of them lucky, but most not. These are the people that love there country so much they will die to save it. They put there hearts into there job and did everything they could untill there was no breath left in them. These are the heros of america.
Even though some may not be with us now, they know that we greatly appreciate there bravery and there loving hearts, that would risk there lives just to save others. People they didn't even know. Put there family in so much pain, just to be the rescuers they are. Even though at first there families might of not understood why this had happened to them, but at the end of the day they know that there brother, sister, father, mom, uncle, aunt, cousin, did them the biggest favor they could ever ask for. They helped save us.

Friday, September 10, 2010


Gotta love dem bones...
Oh the beautiful bones.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Out to dinner at the wonderful Joe's Cold Stone Crap in the city!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

I fall asleep with my makeup on.
Sometimes fully dressed.
I got no inhibitions.
I'm quite uncivilized.
I put my conscience behind me.
I'm rambunctious.
I'm irresponsible.
I'm a teenager.

Monday, September 6, 2010


Open Gym 9/6/10:
Lani lifting my leg, this is my bad leg. I can go higher.
In the middle of a walk over i think!
Go Mandy Go!
Lani and I, just chilling out on the floor. Taking a little break.
I'm not really sure how to rotate this:
Mandy lifting Lani's leg!
Fun Fun Day!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

“What are these scars from?” she asked. “They’re battle wounds,” I replied. She looked at me for a long time. “Who were you battling?” “Myself.”

My life story: right there in that quote. I'm always in a battle and the battle is always against myself.

I always lose.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010



Its been a pretty good experience so far! I'm actually really liking it. Yesterday though was NOT my day. Actually it was a pretty horrible day, but besides that everything has been good, other then embaressing myself non-stop! Sorry i haven't been blogging for awhile, I have just been really really busy!
I feel like I finally found a group of kids that completely relate to me, and love what I love. My favorite class of the day is theatre, the kids are so fun and so nice. You can just tell the moment you see them that there hearts are where my heart is at...theatre. I LOVE THESE PEOPLE. They are so funny, I cant even count how many times I have peed my pants because of them. They make me so happy. I can't wait to audition for the frosh/soph musical. It is going to be one of the funnest things in the world. I will be with most of my "Aladdin" friends, some "Annie" friends and all my new theatre friends that are trying out!

Hard decision:
I miss gymnastics so much, its actually unbelieveable. I have decided that I really want to do it again, so I think I'm going to tryout for the New Trier team. But heres the catch, I'm pretty sure it interferes with the Frosh/Soph musical. So I dont know what I'm going to do! If I make both, I will either have to find away to do both or make a decision...a hard one. I LOVE THEM BOTH! urrgg this suckks.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Sooooo tired....
Cant sleep
Still thinking about you :(

Thursday, August 26, 2010


1 early morning panic attack + a few tears= the morning i go into my freshman year in highschool

cute outfits + a million new faces= the hallway

rapid heart beats + schedule in hand= schools in session

My first day in highschool was one of the most nerve racking thing that has ever happened to me! I had a huge panic attack in the morning and could barely breathe. I got to school, I found my friends pretty quickly but there where so many new faces. I barely got lost though which was great, and I found people I had back to back classes with.

It was a successful day.

Saturday, August 21, 2010


Please come faster..?
Fall is, and always has been my favorite season. I like it so much better then summer, in the summer everyone is always complaining about the heat and misquitoes, but in the fall barely and bugs and the temperature is always just right! Yeah, there are a couple downsides...like school, but honestly I'm excited for school to start! I mean its my freshman year in highschool, if your not excited thats just sad! I also love that in the fall, you can actually wear cloths! I love looking around and seeing everybody in layers and cute little booties, but in the summer you have to wear shorts and a tshirt unless you want to die of a heat stroke. I know schools only a couple days away, and no i am not that excited but I'm just ready, this summer has been so boring. It'll be nice to be able to have more of a structured life.

Saturday, August 14, 2010


Friday, August 13, 2010

I meant to write this in my last post, but if anyone wants to be penpals please comment! I think it would be soo fun!!

Thursday, August 12, 2010


I really want a penpal. I just want to be able to write someone i dont even know and just tell them everything, and for them to do the same.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010


Looks like I'm falling right back into it.
who knows how long it'll take to get out this time...

"Discipline is remembering what you want"

Monday, August 9, 2010

Manolo Blahnik

So In sixth grade my friend and I had to do a project, and we chose the topic of Manolo Blahnik! Now I heard of him a little before but I was never so aware of his shoes and how special they are. Ever since that project, I have been obsessed. If I could only have one pair of shoes for my whole life, I would choose a pair of Manolo Blahnik's. I literally no everything about him and his work. Some kids have an obsession with Justin Beiber or the Jonas brothers, but no. Not me. I have an serious obsession with Manolo.
This is one of the first shoes he designed:
They where designed for the Ossie Clark Show in 1971.

The heels of his shoes are his most special part, they are still handmade and crafted by Manolo himself.

My favorite quote by him:
“About half my designs are controlled fantasy, 15 percent are total madness and the rest arebread-and-butter designs.”

Recent Designs:
this was from is summer 2010 collection

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Quote of the Day:

"You only live once, but if you work it right, once is enough."


This is from an online writing contest I had entered, it was suppose to be about your self using opposites:

I look in the mirror to see a face.
Deep down into those light brown eyes,
I am.
I am who i am, no one can judge.
I am strong, but i am weak.
I am beautiful, but i am grotesque.
I try and make things work,
I try and shine a light, but sometimes it just doesn't work.
I am a poet, who wishes she can write.
I am a child, who puts up a fight.
I write lyrics to be heard,
to tell a story of what i am.
But in the end its no happily ever after
its just me,
and that all i can be.

This was something I wrote awhile back, when I was really upset because of my friend being so far away:

And I would run miles for you.
I would run forever to get to you,
forever because I love you,
forever because I need you.
No matter how long it takes,
I will get to you.

All the grass that separates us
mixed with all the air
creates an atmosphere
of space.

That I will have to fight,
to get to you.

Friday, August 6, 2010


I've given up on writing those letters, I started to get bored
If you have any suggestions on what to do next

Hot Mess

Honesty box on facebook is kinda lame, I rarely ever check it. But the other day I came upon it and I found myself with five comments.

Apparently my question was "What song do I remind you of?" Two out of the five said the song Hot Mess, now one said I reminded them of Hot Mess by Ashley Tisdale and the other said I reminded them of Hot Mess by Cobra starship. (both great songs) there reasoning was simply "because you are one" or "well your a mess, and your hot so it works" So I started wondering...am I a hot mess?

I have come to the conclusion that I am most definitely a mess, always have been. But hot? I can't call myself hot..i find that weird. So whatever, the point of this story is...well there isn't one. But I want to figure out if being a "Hot Mess" is a good thing or bad thing? SO HELP ME OUT!

give me your opinion.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Day #14: Someone you drifted from

Im skipping day 13!
Dear Jenna,
I don't really know what happened, we where best friends we danced together.. we did everything together. We've known each other since we where in dippers and we where best friends ever since. Then one day when we got older we just lost touch. It was really sad. I miss you a lot. We always had so much fun! I remember the time we made a tarp pool in your backyard or when we made up the "boat game" when we pretended we where orphans living on a boat..."hello" I'm pretty sure that was the scariest thing that ever happened to me. I wish we could just hangout again, but every time we try to are plans fail. It sucks. But I guess are lives just don't match up anymore, but maybe one day they will..so for now we will wait!

lots of lovee

Friday, July 30, 2010

Quote of the day:

"I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful"
-"Beautiful" by Bethany Dillon

Day #12: The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Dear, Person

Well I honestly don't really hate anyone. A lot of people have hurt me in the past but I choose to forgive and forget, because I really hate drama. Its all so stupid, girls just like putting other girls down so they feel better about themselves. When honestly you should feel good about yourself no matter what. You don't need to hurt someone else, you just need to love yourself. Well thats all I have to say for this letter..because really, I don't believe in hating.



Girls, I cannot stress enough how beautiful each and everyone of you are.
You may not be the typical "blonde babe"
but no matter who you are you are beautiful.
It doesn't matter if you are a size 12 or a size 2,
either way is perfect.
As long as your happy and healthy.

I absolutely hate it when girls are mean.
When girls call each other ugly and fat,
Just to make them selves feel better.
Its so stupid.

Things like that can lead to girls going through eating disorders and do you really think this
is beautiful:
Or this:
People should not be feeling so down on themselves, that they resort to bulimia or anorexia.
Nobody should ever feel like this:
Everyone is unique in there own way, and everyone was brought here to this earth for a reason. So if someone is a bit out of shape it doesn't matter. As long as they're happy and healthy, they should stay that way. No one deserves to go through all the pain of feeling depressed and so down on themselves that they want to starve or purge. Its horrible to even think some people do that. So this is why everyone needs to know that there beautiful, in there own way. No one is the same, everyone is different. Whether its personality, or size everyone is different.
That is why we are called "individuals"

Just remember you are beautiful.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

quote of the day:

Did you ever walk into a room and forget why you walked in? I think that's how dogs spend their lives.
Sue Murphy

    Day #11: A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

    Dear Pappa,
    Life down here on earth as been quite hard lately, grandma has been staying with us ever since you passed the morning of july 4th. Well, that day mom and aunt carrie got a plane out the Santa Fe to be with grandma..everyone was so upset. I woke up to moms crying and screaming we all thought you where doing so well. They came back a week later but this time with grandma, grandma has been here for about 2 weeks. But her and mom are leaving on saturday to go back to Santa Fe. We all miss you a lot, you where doing so good after surgery we all thought you'd last longer. But at least you died at ease in your beautiful home. You'll never be forgotten. We all loved you so much, I remember so clearly making a bird house with you and Zoe when I was 5. Then you took us to Moodys Pub when I was about ll, I hope you know I will still never go back after I got attacked by the squirrel when we where there. I also remember every time we came to see you, you always gave me and Zoe and new Royal Doulton of our choice! I also remember conning you out of your favorite one. You where such a great grandpa, even though you bored us with your stories and your talks about things I never understood and still don't. Its going to be so weird, not coming up to Santa Fe for thanksgiving because grandma will be coming to us, I wish I got to say goodbye. I mean I talked to you on the phone right before surgery and that was it, I feel so guilty I was always so insensitive and I was sometimes really mean to you. I know you know that I didn't really mean it but I just feel so bad. I want you to know that you will always be missed and loved.
    See you on the other side Pappa,

    Wednesday, July 28, 2010

    Quote of the Day:

    Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye.
    - Miss Piggy

    Day #10: Letter to someone you wish you talked to more

    Dear Kathleen,

    I MISS YOU! We used to be soo tight, we'd sit in your room for hours reciting shakespeare lines from the top of our heads and singing Taylor Swift. Remember that one time when you, me, and Laura tried making brownies but it turned out we just ate the batter? Yeah well I'm pretty sure that was the last time we hung out, what happened? I know we still talk every once and awhile but we aren't like we used to be. I personally think this needs to change ASAP. We are going to hangout and talk again and all the time. We'll have our jamouts we always planned on doing and we'll watch are favorite cheesy lifetime movies. I miss you!!!!!! I'm going to call you tomorrow because today, I have to babysit...for 5 hours. FML.


    Tuesday, July 27, 2010

    The human body.

    Don't you just love all the things you could do with your body?
    No matter what size the body is always beautiful.
    well everyone is!
    Chubby hands? Thats pretty cool.

    Everyone has a little bit of cool in them :)
    Be proud of who you are!
    If you have curves, embrace them.
    If people call you ugly, say whatever and walk away. Then tell yourself your beautiful no matter what people say!
    If people say your pretty, say thank you but don't flaunt it.
    You don't have to be stick thin
    You just have to be happy!
    Don't be embarssed of how you look, all that matters is that you feel good about yourself.
    Don't let people tear you down, because the truth is there more insecure then you think.
    Be happy, no matter what.
    Just remember its your opinion on yourself that counts.
    Not anyone else's
    So what if your not the flawless girl on the magazine cover!
    Those girls aren't real!

    But you are.