Quote of the day:

"I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful"

-"Beautiful" by Bethany Dillon

Day #12: The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Dear, Person

Well I honestly don't really hate anyone. A lot of people have hurt me in the past but I choose to forgive and forget, because I really hate drama. Its all so stupid, girls just like putting other girls down so they feel better about themselves. When honestly you should feel good about yourself no matter what. You don't need to hurt someone else, you just need to love yourself. Well thats all I have to say for this letter..because really, I don't believe in hating.

xoxo

Geena

Beautiful

Girls, I cannot stress enough how beautiful each and everyone of you are.

You may not be the typical "blonde babe"

but no matter who you are you are beautiful.

It doesn't matter if you are a size 12 or a size 2,

either way is perfect.

As long as your happy and healthy.

I absolutely hate it when girls are mean.

When girls call each other ugly and fat,

Just to make them selves feel better.

Its so stupid.

Things like that can lead to girls going through eating disorders and do you really think this

is beautiful:

Or this:

People should not be feeling so down on themselves, that they resort to bulimia or anorexia.

Nobody should ever feel like this:

Everyone is unique in there own way, and everyone was brought here to this earth for a reason. So if someone is a bit out of shape it doesn't matter. As long as they're happy and healthy, they should stay that way. No one deserves to go through all the pain of feeling depressed and so down on themselves that they want to starve or purge. Its horrible to even think some people do that. So this is why everyone needs to know that there beautiful, in there own way. No one is the same, everyone is different. Whether its personality, or size everyone is different.

That is why we are called "individuals"

Just remember you are beautiful.

quote of the day:

Did you ever walk into a room and forget why you walked in? I think that's how dogs spend their lives.

Sue Murphy

Day #11: A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Dear Pappa,

Life down here on earth as been quite hard lately, grandma has been staying with us ever since you passed the morning of july 4th. Well, that day mom and aunt carrie got a plane out the Santa Fe to be with grandma..everyone was so upset. I woke up to moms crying and screaming we all thought you where doing so well. They came back a week later but this time with grandma, grandma has been here for about 2 weeks. But her and mom are leaving on saturday to go back to Santa Fe. We all miss you a lot, you where doing so good after surgery we all thought you'd last longer. But at least you died at ease in your beautiful home. You'll never be forgotten. We all loved you so much, I remember so clearly making a bird house with you and Zoe when I was 5. Then you took us to Moodys Pub when I was about ll, I hope you know I will still never go back after I got attacked by the squirrel when we where there. I also remember every time we came to see you, you always gave me and Zoe and new Royal Doulton of our choice! I also remember conning you out of your favorite one. You where such a great grandpa, even though you bored us with your stories and your talks about things I never understood and still don't. Its going to be so weird, not coming up to Santa Fe for thanksgiving because grandma will be coming to us, I wish I got to say goodbye. I mean I talked to you on the phone right before surgery and that was it, I feel so guilty I was always so insensitive and I was sometimes really mean to you. I know you know that I didn't really mean it but I just feel so bad. I want you to know that you will always be missed and loved.

See you on the other side Pappa,

Geena

xoxo

Quote of the Day:

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye.
- Miss Piggy

Day #10: Letter to someone you wish you talked to more

Dear Kathleen,

I MISS YOU! We used to be soo tight, we'd sit in your room for hours reciting shakespeare lines from the top of our heads and singing Taylor Swift. Remember that one time when you, me, and Laura tried making brownies but it turned out we just ate the batter? Yeah well I'm pretty sure that was the last time we hung out, what happened? I know we still talk every once and awhile but we aren't like we used to be. I personally think this needs to change ASAP. We are going to hangout and talk again and all the time. We'll have our jamouts we always planned on doing and we'll watch are favorite cheesy lifetime movies. I miss you!!!!!! I'm going to call you tomorrow because today, I have to babysit...for 5 hours. FML.

Love,

Geena

xoxoxooxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxo

The human body.

Don't you just love all the things you could do with your body?

flexability

strangth

beautifulness

akwardness

No matter what size the body is always beautiful.

Akwardness.

well everyone is!

Chubby hands? Thats pretty cool.

Everyone has a little bit of cool in them :)

Be proud of who you are!

If you have curves, embrace them.

If people call you ugly, say whatever and walk away. Then tell yourself your beautiful no matter what people say!

If people say your pretty, say thank you but don't flaunt it.

JUST BE YOURSELF!

You don't have to be stick thin

You just have to be happy!

Don't be embarssed of how you look, all that matters is that you feel good about yourself.

Don't let people tear you down, because the truth is there more insecure then you think.

Be happy, no matter what.

Just remember its your opinion on yourself that counts.

Not anyone else's

So what if your not the flawless girl on the magazine cover!

Those girls aren't real!

But you are.

Quote of the day:

"Tell them to remember the stars"

-TWLOHA

Day #9: Letter to someone you would like to meet

THIS IS EASY!!

Dear Taylor Swift,

Your music is beautiful it truly speaks to me and I'm sure thousands of other teenage girls out there. You are my inspiration and I hope I'd really get to meet you one day. You are so talented and so beautiful, I can honestly say I wish I was you. In 6th grade I went through my first big break up I was so upset I don't think I stopped crying for like a week, and then I turned on "Picture to Burn" and it literally just got me through it and made me realize who cares he's just another boy who will break all the girls hearts. And guess what!? I was right.

You are my biggest influence, in my music and in my writing. I love how you show your true side in your music and never change how you feel. I love how all your music is basically written by you and has a true message. The message in your music has such a deep meaning that some people think is only about all those heartbreaking boys but its not.

Sometimes when I feel like I can't get up in the morning or when I'm in one of those moods I know I can just put some of your music on and feel better. I listen to you every morning before school. When I get all frustrated and feel like I should just give up I think of how far you have gone with your music and then I realize how far I could go with mine. I love to sing and I love to play guitar and your the reason I haven't stopped. Your the reason I keep going.

When it was write taylor lyrics on your arms day, I went all out! I had your lyrics and your quotes on my arms, hands, legs, even a few on my stomach. Your quotes are brilliant and your lyrics are even better. "A let down is worth a few songs but a heartbreak is worth a few albums." That quote literally explains my life. Your songs literally explain my life, sometimes when I feel like I have a chance with someone it never works. I'm always the one who gets there heartbroken, never do I break someone else's heart.

Fifteen, my life right there. "Cause when someone tells you they love you your gonna believe them" I'm pretty sure that happens to me once a month. I am going to be a freshman and I'm pretty sure I'll be listening to this song everyday. "And your mommas waiting up, and you think that he's the one, and your dancing 'round your room when the night ends" Yup, I can't even explain how many times that has happened.

I love how true your lyrics are.

Right now, I'm going into my freshman year of highschool. I always think well maybe if I just keep a good attitude and never give up like you, I'll end up in your shoes someday and maybe one day I'll get to write and preform a song with you. But for now I guess I'll just have to wait and see.

xoxo

Geena

Day #8: Letter to your favorite internet friend

Well to be honest I really don't have a internet friend. But there is someone that I am friends with on facebook that I really want to meet.

soo...

Dear Danielle,

We don't know each other but we are friends on facebook, you seem really cool and it also seems like we have a lot in common. We both play guitar, we both sing, and we both seem to be interested in theatre. I've read your journal on your website before and it was really cool I also thought it was pretty funny because we are both doing the 30 day letter challenge, yet you are a day before me.

Love,

Geena

It really sucks feeling so...

Invisible.

Don't you just hate that word? It makes you feel soo unwanted.

But the truth is, sometimes we are unwanted.

Taylor Swift.

Yeah, she honestly gets us girls through the worst.

I've always been a huge Taylor Swift fan, ever since 6th grade. But the past week I haven't been able to stop listening to the song "Invisible" by her. It is actually beautiful and completely describes whats going on in my life right now..well...boy wise.

I've barely been able to sleep.

not like I sleep anyways..

my mind always gets the best of me.

STUPID THOUGHTS.

My thoughts are racing, I honestly feel like I have a huge NASA car race going through my head but instead of cars there thoughts...I feel dizzy from all this.

I can barely breathe, especially when I'm around him.

But I've also never been anywhere as cold as him.

Another great TSwift song

"As cold as you"

Quote

I realized I havent done a quote of the day in awhile,

soo here it goes:

No one should negotiate their dreams. Dreams must be free to flee and fly high. No government, no legislature, has a right to limit your dreams. You should never agree to surrender your dreams.
Rev. Jesse Jackson

Day #7: Letter to your Exboyfriend

Nope not happening.

I am not even going there with boys.

They all suck.

There just there to break your heart.

No way.

It would be a ten page rant about how much boys suck.

THEY SUCK.

Yet... I love them,

but I wish they didn't have the power to make girls cry.

Boys.

They really do suck.

Day #6: A letter to a Stranger

Dear Stranger,

Hi my name is Geena, I'm pretty complex, but here are some things you should know.

I don't hold grudges but please don't take advantage of that.

I over think everything and sometimes that gets the best of me.

I worry a lot and have a lot of anxiety.

I am really caring.

I love a lot and a little to much.

My favorite show: Degrassi - if you like it chat me up :)

I love to act, I've been in a couple musicals and I've auditioned for things, it truly is my passion.

I also love to sing, I'm not amazing at it but its something I love to do.

I love the beach, if i could spend every day of my life there I would.

Even though I don't hold grudges I do get mad and when I'm mad at someone they should know that I will go straight up to them and say it.

I'm a pretty straight up person.

My favorite color is purple, i just love it.

I'm short and I'm done growing, but I'm happy about it.

I'm not your typical girl and sometimes I feel invisible.

I am always my self and I don't care what people think of me.

Mean comments do tear me down though.

I am a teenage girl just trying to live it up, these are the best years of our life.

So please don't tear me down.

xoxo,

Geena

Day #5: Letter to your Dreams

hmmm...

Dear Dreams,

I'm sorry to say i rarely remember you. Its weird though because when I was younger I would remember every second of you, but now do to the lack of sleep I'm guessing my dreams just seem more baffled then ever before. When I do remember my dreams I usually end up remembering them later in the day..there usually strange. Recently I had a dream that was very out of the ordinary, it was that one of my good friends turned into a bee.

So.Strange.

I'm terrified of getting nightmares... I think my biggest nightmare is having a nightmare. I'm beginning to believe that I feel this way because when I was younger I had this recurring nightmare that my whole family got kidnapped and drown in the lake..except for me, so there I was, an orphan.

Scary.. I know.

Love,

Geena

Day #4: Letter to your sibling (or closest relative)

Dear Zoe,

I remember back in the day when we alway got in fights you where in 5th grade and was in 3rd, you where in that stage where you were always moody and you would literally yell at me for saying hello. Now that we are older things have changed and our relationship has grown closer then ever, even though we fight sometimes we still have our times where we can just sit in your room and talk about anything. Friends, boys, how annoying our family can be..literally anything. I'll be there for you through anything even when I'm mad at you and even when where grown up living our own life's. A sisters bond is stronger then anything, we get each other, and even though we don't get to pick our family, I'm glad your my family. Even though you make fun of me for being younger and tiny I know you still love me :) So thanks for being there for me because you'll know I am always there for you.

Love,

Geena

Day #3: Letter to your Parents

Dear Mom and Dad,

I know I'm a pain in the ass and that I make a ton of mistakes. I'm sorry for annoying you and getting in trouble and I'm sorry when I act like a stuck up brat. But thank you for always being there and dealing with me through all my crazy times. The times when I was little and I would put to much gum in my mouth, the time I thought i was cool because I knew how to open a peanut shell but then I choked and the time that I wrote on Zoe's door when I was mad at her. When I went through my Abercrombie and Juicy stage and then my punk rocker stage. When all I wore was black, pink, and silver. I'd wear fake piercings and tell you they where real just to piss you off and then the time I went through the hardest experience of my life. Thank you guys for never giving up. Thank you for not being super strict though you can be up tight sometimes and thank you for never ignoring me. Trust me I know I am a crazy teenager, and I know that I put you through a lot. But thank you so much for never giving up.

Love,

Geena

Day #2: Letter to your crush

Dear Crush,

I prefer not to say your name, but basically I have liked you since 5th grade. We went out once and then just had a thing once but my heart never stopped. I have always liked you and I really don't know why, you choose other girls over me when those girls just like you for the attention since you now live far away. When I have liked you since 5th for you and nothing else. I wish I could just walk right up to you and tell you straight up how I feel, but I can't. Why? because every time I'm around you I feel like I can't breathe and every time I'm around you, your usually are mobbed by other girls. You don't get how much it breaks my heart to know that you know how I feel about you, and that you would rather watch me crumble while you go for other girls that don't really care. I just wish I could tell you that I will always be here for you even if we can't be more then friends. I miss the old times when it was me and you and that is it. No one could stop us, we where so close. But I have a feeling thats not going to happen again.

Love,

Geena

The 30 Day Letter Challenge

Day #1: Letter to your Best Friend(s)

Dear Best Friend(s),

I can't even explain how much i love all you guys, I can't name just one best friend because I have a couple. You guys are always there for me and I am always there for you guys. I can tell you guys anything and trust you 100% with it. We have memories that will really last a lifetime and a bond that i know i will never forget. You guys are my childhood, my adolescents, and hopefully my adult life. I know that we may separate or drift apart but you guys will always be in my heart. Some of you guys i have known since i was in dippers and others i have just met or have only known for some years. But no matter what I LOVE YOU ALL.

Love,

Geena

A fun day in winnetka.

Hettie Price.

This is dedicated to Hettie Price and her confusing life.

So Hettie is one interesting girl, she loves to shop especially for vintage stuff. She seems like an all around great girl and that she is, but deep down inside she has a really confusing life. Never would you think Hettie has troubles with her love life, but yes she does. Oh yes she does. So there is this guy his name is Reuban he is one cool guy that Hettie is very fond of. They seem to like each other very much, you always see them hugging and kissing until this one day where another guy stepped in. Paul was his name and oh he is a nice and charming boy. He asked her to sail he promised he'd make her dinner. What an amazing offer she thought, though she felt bad because Reuban was sad. Hettie still loved him but then she thought "oh paul he'd be so heartbroken if i reject." So Hettie is one complex girl with boy troubles you could never imagine. She is still undecided on what to do since Reuban is mad but Paul will be to.

THE END.

Lipstick

It just smells so good.

Formspring

DONE AND DELETED.

I'm sick of bitches trying to tell me who i am and what i do wrong, its so stupid. Formspring is just for insecure girls who have to put other people down to make them feel better about themselves, and I'm done with people trying to put me down. Im done. I'm sorry if I'm not perfect and I'm sorry if i've made some mistakes but honestly you don't need to tell me that im a fat ugly whore who has no friends. That's just mean, and thats all formspring is. Mean comments.

Love

Love, is such a pretty word.
young love is such a beautiful thing

Don't you just love walking around and seeing all the love? I do.


I wish i had someone to love right now.
Love

2:32 am

Nothing

Still no sleep
and absolutely nothing to do


I need sleep so desperately but my body just wont let it happen. Hmmm what to do what to do.

I know i shouldn't be on the computer because thats not gonna help the insomnia
But i've done practically everything else.

Late night video chats:


Urban dictionary's definition of Geena: "craziest mofo eva!! fun lil girl not too wild cute enuff 2 make u smile!! ;) hehe!! party gurllll!"

That definition seems pretty accurate :) i am a parrttyy giirrll! yahtrickyah.

My Sleepless Drawings.

Notebook, the best movie ever created. I LOVE IT. This is the kiss in the rain scene, i know its not very good but cut me some slack it was like 2 in the morning when i drew it and i mean I'm more of a writer then i am a drawer. I love to draw and paint but I'm not really the best at it.

I don't even know.



No big deal just Hettie and Reuban..

Sleep.

I have barely been able to sleep this whole week because of all these crazy thoughts i have going through my head. The thoughts don't even make sense, at least most of them don't. The few that do make sense just feel like numbness going through my whole body. I wish they didn't make sense. Thoughts that don't make sense feel so much better then thoughts that do. I mean i don't even think this makes sense because my brain is so jammed.
I guess its good no one reads this or else i bet they'd think I'm some sort of psycho.
With my brain all backed up i haven't even been able to write..because none of it makes sense. So i have been drawing a lot, trying to figure out these thoughts.

But my drawings don't even make sense
There just of people.

Oh how baffled i get when i don't sleep.
Boys are so confusing.. great. Theres one thought working its way to being published.
Okay i need to shut up now.

I'm gonna rewind a little and go back to the 7th grade. It was a horrible year that i mostly blacked out, but there was this guy that i can never get out of my head, he is a big reason for my sleeplessness..wow thats a weird word. Okay anyways, i just can't get it out of my head, the guy that is. I keep thinking about him, and even those couple hours i slept..he was in my dreams. Its just so weird i can't even handle it.
Breakage

Thats all it was..breakage.

Hmm.. im having the feeling i don't make sense right now.
So i'm just going to come back later..
when i have slept.

Why hello there!

I kinda think i want to bedazzle it, but just the rim.

Sorry i haven't been writing lately! I've just been oh so busy, i went to camp for a week and it was really fun! I miss it so much its unbelievable. I love it that theres no drama there..not ever. Then i come back home and the drama is just crazy, i hate it. Other then that life's been pretty good. Been hanging with some friends and just living it up. Things have been pretty crazy lately though, schools starting in a month (FML) and i am just not ready. We got our advisors the other day, my advisory is amazing i have 7 friends in it which is great! But i've been thinking, I'm going into high school its going to be such a big change, but i am defiantly ready for it. Its just weird to think back in elementary we had to by markers and colored pencils, now we have to by calculators that are over 100$..its just so weird.

I dont want school to start.