I've been in a really weird mood lately, I have been happy but I've also been sad at the same time. ITS SO ANNOYING. People piss me off so much too, and nobody really knows but I am VERY self conscious. I am always worrying about what people think of me and lately just the littlest comments will ruin my whole week. Even when people are joking making fun of me it still gets to me and it really brings me down, even when I KNOW they are joking.
I have been playing guitar a lot. I'm not very amazing at it but when i get in these moods, I really like playing just a few chords and making up words i think my best one lately was just playing the G, E and A chord and singing "I fucking hate peopleeee, they are all soo annoyyingg. School suckkss. I am very boreedd." Literally that is what I sang, well more like talksang.
It's 10:06 right now.
I am so sleepy.
BUT I HAVE TO FINISH THIS POST.
Theatre Class 101:
Today I FINALLY got to preform my monologue, since I was the last person on the list I got to wait 3 lovely school days, and a weekend to perform mine. I know that sounds pretty good because I got extra time to practice but ITS NOT. People told me I did really well, but I felt like I actually did HORRIBLE and I'm not just saying that. I was shaking a little bit and I was sorta nervous which is not like me at all (it must be this mood). I did get an A on it though which is good.
Last but not least, I actually hate that phase because it doesn't make any sense to me. If its last it usually is least. But whatever. What I meant to be saying is I CANNOT WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS. In chorus we started preparing for our winter showcase and its a lot of holiday songs and it just made me SOOO HAPPPYYY.
I am actually about to pass out.
I'll try and blog tomorrow.