For those of you going tomorrow, wear comfy clothes and get ready for some tears. I think that anyone who is thinking about going SHOULD go, it was a great experiance and I feel a lot better now that I got some things off my chest
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Today was one of the most emotionally draining days ever. I spoke a little about the names program before, but today was the day I got to participate in it. They took half of the freshman class and put us all in the auditorium at the beginning we heard a couple upperclassmen speak about there experiances in names and Troy, the guy who puts this all together spoke a little bit to. After that we went with our advisories into break out sessions, where we go to a classroom have a snack, talk a little and do a work sheet. Once that was over we went back into the auditorium for 2 and a half hours and we did a thing called open mic. It was when you could go up to the mic and say your story about being bullied, being the perpatrator, the ally, or the bystander. At first Troy told us his story, and then some upperclassmen told theres...and then it was are turn. I was really nervous but I knew that if I didn't go up I would regret it, so I did. I told the story about when I got bullied in 7th grade. I was crying when I finally got my chance to talk, It was a really hard thing for me to do. Even listening to other peoples stories was sad, I think just about the whole auditorium was in tears. It was a wonderful day, I felt like it brought this half of the freshman class closer to each other. I really enjoyed it.
Monday, November 29, 2010
I realized some people don't know who Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeros are... well this is one of there songs and also one of my favorites! It is called Janglin.
Im seeing them in concert on saturday and I am so excited, It is going to be crazy, I will definitely post about it after!
Thursday, November 25, 2010
eat untill you are about to blow up.
I am thankful for all of my family and friends for always being there for me even though I do pretty stupid stuff. I am thankful for my friends for putting up with craziness and all of my problems and complaints. I love you all. I do not know where I'd be today if it wasn't for you guys, actually I would probably not be here today. So thank you, you guys are my saviors and my life. I am also thankful for all of the people that read my blog, thank you for listening to my every thought and putting up with me when I get into those weird moods and don't blog for like 1000 years. Thank you everybody. Thank you for those watching down on me, we miss you and love you here on earth.
I cannot wait for those mashed potatoes.
Whats your favorite thanksgiving food?
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
I decided I was bored of my old blog design so, I changed it. I'm not so sure if I like it or not but I thought it definitely different. Tell me if you like this one better then the old one or the old one better then this one! If you have time maybe you can go on thecutestblogontheblock.com and tell me if you like a totally different one better!
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
I got a request to write about my feeling towards the Names Program, my advisory is one of the first advisorys to go and to be honest I'm a bit excited for it. I am excited to hear other peoples stories of getting bullied and be able to compare them to my own. I feel like it will really show people that they ARE NOT alone and I know from experiance that a lot of people want to know that. I remember when I was a victim of bullying and I felt so alone, so depressed, so anxious, I felt like NO ONE understood what I was going through and no one could help me no matter how hard they tried. Now I realize that I was never really alone and people all around me could have been going through a similar thing, I just wish I realized that then instead of now. I think that the Names Program will really bring awareness to that and maybe even help any bullying problem that happens in school. I'll post after I go to the program to tell you all about it and maybe I'll even post my own story and maybe you guys can share your own!
I also got another request to post what I write about in my journals on here but I dont know if I'm going to do that because its really personal you know? I may post little parts of it but most likely not all of it!
Monday, November 22, 2010
I'm sorry my blog posts have been really short and uninteresting, I just haven't been able to sit down and blog. I think of so many great things I could write about but then I just can't do it. Right now my mind is completely blank. I can't think of 1 little thing that may be interesting for everybody (if anybody) reading this. So please, if you have ANY suggestions comment them or even email them, I would love to hear what YOU want to read about. So just give it a go I would really really appreciate it.
Sooo update on life, I'm learning a new elvis song on guitar and I finished my 10th journal. I just got a new one, and maybe because of this crazy writers block it won't fill up as fast.
This was the last line of my filled up journal I don't know why but I love it so I wanted to share it with you: "But I am done with being nice and I am done with getting good grades, I am breaking free, I am me."
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
I don't know if you have noticed but I have not been blogging lately and that because well, I just have been in one of those funks and I just can't seem to get out of it. People are telling me to blog and I keep saying no. But now I finally am.
I've been in a really weird mood lately, I have been happy but I've also been sad at the same time. ITS SO ANNOYING. People piss me off so much too, and nobody really knows but I am VERY self conscious. I am always worrying about what people think of me and lately just the littlest comments will ruin my whole week. Even when people are joking making fun of me it still gets to me and it really brings me down, even when I KNOW they are joking.
I have been playing guitar a lot. I'm not very amazing at it but when i get in these moods, I really like playing just a few chords and making up words i think my best one lately was just playing the G, E and A chord and singing "I fucking hate peopleeee, they are all soo annoyyingg. School suckkss. I am very boreedd." Literally that is what I sang, well more like talksang.
It's 10:06 right now.
I am so sleepy.
BUT I HAVE TO FINISH THIS POST.
Theatre Class 101:
Today I FINALLY got to preform my monologue, since I was the last person on the list I got to wait 3 lovely school days, and a weekend to perform mine. I know that sounds pretty good because I got extra time to practice but ITS NOT. People told me I did really well, but I felt like I actually did HORRIBLE and I'm not just saying that. I was shaking a little bit and I was sorta nervous which is not like me at all (it must be this mood). I did get an A on it though which is good.
Last but not least, I actually hate that phase because it doesn't make any sense to me. If its last it usually is least. But whatever. What I meant to be saying is I CANNOT WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS. In chorus we started preparing for our winter showcase and its a lot of holiday songs and it just made me SOOO HAPPPYYY.
I am actually about to pass out.
I'll try and blog tomorrow.