Theres not a day where I don’t think about you. Your presents haunts my mind, and I wonder if you think of me. You where my first love and I was yours but for some reason I feel like you’ve moved on as I’ve slowly been trying to keep moving.

1 year!

OH EM GEE GUYS!!

my one year aniversery of this blog is on saturday HOLY MOLY! Well we have to celebrate.. if you have any ideas for something I should post HOLLA IT AT ME! I'm up for anything! Go crazy!

There are so many people in this world, so many people that I will soon meet or never meet. That frightens me. What if I walk past the love of my life every day and don't even know it? Or what if I never meet the one? I hate that we are told to wait till love finds you, when truly I want to find love. Sometimes I think that when you are feeling something you should take advantage of it before it leaves. Don't wait around for him/her to confront you because the chances of that happening are very slim, go leap for it! Its always worth a shot, even if you get let down at least you know what his/her feelings are towards you so your not laying in bed every night thinking about it. I've decided its time for me to take that leap.. I'm going to ask him straight up how he feels and if I get let down so be it, at least I know.

"Stay Calm and Carry On"

"Dirt and glitter cover the floor
We're pretty and sick
We're young and we're bored"

-Ke$ha

Some times being a teenager can suck.. but then there are those moment that you wish would never end. Be happy your young, don't grow up to fast because there is way to much ahead. This weekend has been so great... it really opened my eyes on how great life can be. Partying all weekend after a crazy stressful week was just what I needed and now I'm out of my funk and back on top.

awkward...

Well I'm really sorry that I said I would tell you what had happened in an hour but now its been 2 days and I'm finally telling you. PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!

so basically, i found out that a girl that I thought I was friends with talks so much shit behind my back. I was always so nice to her, I never did anything mean, so why go and talk shit? If you don't like me take it up with me, if i offended you take it up with me. Don't talk to other people who probably don't even know me. Like are you serious? It just pisses me of that people do that kind of stuff. I'm not perfect, I've talked behind peoples backs before but never like that and never about someone for no reason.

Oh my.. do I have things to tell you! YES YOU! But you'll have to wait in hour, because I'm about to leave for guitar!

loveyouall

Why hello there!

Have you guys ever realized that we base our lives so much on pop culture, and being like the celebs that our brains aren't completely in reality?

Everyone wants to be famous! I want to be famous. I always question it though, like why would I ever want to be famous? Being famous obviously has its up and downs.. but lately I've been seeing a lot of downs! There are soo many celeb couples, that almost always end in divorce or the younger stars always seem to end up getting into some kind of trouble with the law. So why is it that we strive for that fame? Why do we want to be just like these people? We want the attention. We want people following us, asking for autographs, hanging our pictures on there wall. Yes, I want to be famous.. like I honestly really do. But then I think of all the bad that comes with the fame and i reconsider it. But hey! I'm not famous .. so I guess I truly wouldn't know.

Sorry I've been gone guys. I've been very busy lately, I hope this was a good first post in a long time!

I'm sorry I have been absent from my blog lately

I can run ten miles a day and eat like a health freak.. yet nothing ever changes. IM SO SICK OF IT. I know this is contradicting considering I've talked about loving your self and the body you have.. and I do believe in that but its hard sometimes when you see super skinny girls all around you and then you look in the mirror and hate yourself. I'm honestly ready for all this to change, I want to grow into my body but I know its not going to happen because I'm 15 years old 5'1 AND DONE GROWING. It sucks. So I know to make things change I'm going to have to push for it so I can be happy and be able to look in the mirror and smile... so I can stop feeling like the fat loaf in the middle of all my beautiful skinny friends.

I'm done with waiting. I'm done with feeling like this.

I'm ready for change.

I'm pretty sure the picture explains everything...

NOH8

I don't understand why people say things like "thats gay" or "your so gay" 1. an inanimate object can not have a sexual preferance and 2. if you say "your so gay" your assuming that that person likes the same sex which IS NOT a bad thing.. so why are you saying it negatively?

My friend and I had a little NOH8 and FCKH8 photo shoot... i edited this picture and I want an opinion on which one you think I should post on the campaigns website! So please take a look at them and comment which one you think I should post.

http://www.noh8campaign.com/

http://fckh8.com/Bullies/

^These are the campaign websites... the NOH8 one you can submit your own photos (which is what I am going to do) Its really awesome.. and they have open photo shoots all the time all around the country.

Thanks guys! Sorry I haven't been updating to much

Photo 1

Photo 2

This is not showing up well on the blog but it does on the other websites!

Photo 3 (unedited)

New Year.

NEW YEAR, NEW ME

I hate living in a old reputation, I want people to see who I really am.. I'm done being something I thought people would want me to be. I'm in highschool... junior high is over, its in the past and I want it to stay like that. I made a lot of mistakes in the junior high, I turned myself into a fake bitch.. I pretended to be someone I really wasn't. I want people to see the true me now. I'm not afraid of what people think of me anymore, my true friends will be the ones who will stick with me no matter what and won't care how I dress or act. They will love me for the true me not the fake one. So this year 2011, I'm starting over.

sooo...

Hey I'm Geena, art and theatre are my passions. I love photography, painting, drawing, dancing, singing, acting. I love my friends and family more then anything. I find the beauty in everything a normal eye would deem ugly. I may say I'm bored but I never truly am. I find people watching so interesting, and sometimes I wish I could just go up to a random person and ask if I could take their picture. My mind wonders off 24/7 and I like to draw out what I dream. My thoughts all turn into art work and my writing really speaks the truth. I love the feeling of love but I hate when it ends, drama is the worst but I manage to get in it a lot. I wish my name was Cleo and I think everyone is beautiful in many different ways. Nice to meet you.

So tell me about yourself... I want to know things about everyone that reads my blog!

Oopss... SORRY

I'm sorry I haven't been blogging at all, I just either don't have enough time or have to much time when my thoughts are clogging my mind and I can't even think about blogging. But I'm back right now and hopefully I won't leave again...

All I want is for you to see my pain, look at my scars and trace them with your fingers. I want you to notice that I am not okay no matter how happy I seem. When I'm with people I'm almost always fine...but haven't you noticed that I haven't been going out as much as I used to? Haven't you noticed that getting up in the morning is the hardest thing for me to? I can barely move anymore my joints feel weak and my muscles ache. All I want is to be happy.. I know you want that for me to but you need to stop thinking about yourself.

I want to watch movies with you and fall asleep in your arms, I want to wear your sweatshirt and live in your cologne, I want you to kiss my forehead and look into my eyes.. I want you to tell me you love me. I want to run away with you... live on the beach and watch the stars every night .. I want to be YOURS and I want YOU to be MINE

“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.”

Birthday! Finally 15.

Ditched school today and saw Black Swan, sooo good! I really recommend it

BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE!!

EDWARD SHARPE AND THE MAGNETIC ZEROS and GRACE POTTER AND THE NOCTURNALS.

I dont think i have ever been happier, that night was everything i had imagined and more. I can not stop smiling. I wish I could relive that night soo much. Even if that was a one night thing.. I could have never asked for more. And if it last longer than just one night.. let it be. Let the wind take me. I feel soo good.

Don't you just hate when you, meet someone and instantly fall for them but deep down inside you know it would NEVER happen.

I know I hate it.

I had a little random photo shoot with myself.

Names

Today was one of the most emotionally draining days ever. I spoke a little about the names program before, but today was the day I got to participate in it. They took half of the freshman class and put us all in the auditorium at the beginning we heard a couple upperclassmen speak about there experiances in names and Troy, the guy who puts this all together spoke a little bit to. After that we went with our advisories into break out sessions, where we go to a classroom have a snack, talk a little and do a work sheet. Once that was over we went back into the auditorium for 2 and a half hours and we did a thing called open mic. It was when you could go up to the mic and say your story about being bullied, being the perpatrator, the ally, or the bystander. At first Troy told us his story, and then some upperclassmen told theres...and then it was are turn. I was really nervous but I knew that if I didn't go up I would regret it, so I did. I told the story about when I got bullied in 7th grade. I was crying when I finally got my chance to talk, It was a really hard thing for me to do. Even listening to other peoples stories was sad, I think just about the whole auditorium was in tears. It was a wonderful day, I felt like it brought this half of the freshman class closer to each other. I really enjoyed it.

For those of you going tomorrow, wear comfy clothes and get ready for some tears. I think that anyone who is thinking about going SHOULD go, it was a great experiance and I feel a lot better now that I got some things off my chest

Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros - Janglin

I realized some people don't know who Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeros are... well this is one of there songs and also one of my favorites! It is called Janglin.

Im seeing them in concert on saturday and I am so excited, It is going to be crazy, I will definitely post about it after!

xoxo

Bluegrass festival anyone?

EDWARD SHARPE PERFORMING AT CONGRESS THEATRE ON SATURDAY.

sooo freaking excited.

Thanksgiving!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

eat untill you are about to blow up.

I am thankful for all of my family and friends for always being there for me even though I do pretty stupid stuff. I am thankful for my friends for putting up with craziness and all of my problems and complaints. I love you all. I do not know where I'd be today if it wasn't for you guys, actually I would probably not be here today. So thank you, you guys are my saviors and my life. I am also thankful for all of the people that read my blog, thank you for listening to my every thought and putting up with me when I get into those weird moods and don't blog for like 1000 years. Thank you everybody. Thank you for those watching down on me, we miss you and love you here on earth.

I cannot wait for those mashed potatoes.

Whats your favorite thanksgiving food?