Hellooo:)

I HATE BEING INVISIBLE. WHY CANT HE JUST SEE ME, for once.

Highschool:

Its been a pretty good experience so far! I'm actually really liking it. Yesterday though was NOT my day. Actually it was a pretty horrible day, but besides that everything has been good, other then embaressing myself non-stop! Sorry i haven't been blogging for awhile, I have just been really really busy!

Theatre:

I feel like I finally found a group of kids that completely relate to me, and love what I love. My favorite class of the day is theatre, the kids are so fun and so nice. You can just tell the moment you see them that there hearts are where my heart is at...theatre. I LOVE THESE PEOPLE. They are so funny, I cant even count how many times I have peed my pants because of them. They make me so happy. I can't wait to audition for the frosh/soph musical. It is going to be one of the funnest things in the world. I will be with most of my "Aladdin" friends, some "Annie" friends and all my new theatre friends that are trying out!

Hard decision:

I miss gymnastics so much, its actually unbelieveable. I have decided that I really want to do it again, so I think I'm going to tryout for the New Trier team. But heres the catch, I'm pretty sure it interferes with the Frosh/Soph musical. So I dont know what I'm going to do! If I make both, I will either have to find away to do both or make a decision...a hard one. I LOVE THEM BOTH! urrgg this suckks.

Sooooo tired....

Cant sleep

Still thinking about you :(

Highschool

1 early morning panic attack + a few tears= the morning i go into my freshman year in highschool

cute outfits + a million new faces= the hallway

rapid heart beats + schedule in hand= schools in session

My first day in highschool was one of the most nerve racking thing that has ever happened to me! I had a huge panic attack in the morning and could barely breathe. I got to school, I found my friends pretty quickly but there where so many new faces. I barely got lost though which was great, and I found people I had back to back classes with.

It was a successful day.

Fall

Please come faster..?

Fall is, and always has been my favorite season. I like it so much better then summer, in the summer everyone is always complaining about the heat and misquitoes, but in the fall barely and bugs and the temperature is always just right! Yeah, there are a couple downsides...like school, but honestly I'm excited for school to start! I mean its my freshman year in highschool, if your not excited thats just sad! I also love that in the fall, you can actually wear cloths! I love looking around and seeing everybody in layers and cute little booties, but in the summer you have to wear shorts and a tshirt unless you want to die of a heat stroke. I know schools only a couple days away, and no i am not that excited but I'm just ready, this summer has been so boring. It'll be nice to be able to have more of a structured life.

I HATE MEAN PEOPLE!!!

I meant to write this in my last post, but if anyone wants to be penpals please comment! I think it would be soo fun!!

Penpal.

I really want a penpal. I just want to be able to write someone i dont even know and just tell them everything, and for them to do the same.

Uhoh.

Looks like I'm falling right back into it.

who knows how long it'll take to get out this time...

"Discipline is remembering what you want"

Manolo Blahnik

So In sixth grade my friend and I had to do a project, and we chose the topic of Manolo Blahnik! Now I heard of him a little before but I was never so aware of his shoes and how special they are. Ever since that project, I have been obsessed. If I could only have one pair of shoes for my whole life, I would choose a pair of Manolo Blahnik's. I literally no everything about him and his work. Some kids have an obsession with Justin Beiber or the Jonas brothers, but no. Not me. I have an serious obsession with Manolo.

This is one of the first shoes he designed:

They where designed for the Ossie Clark Show in 1971.

The heels of his shoes are his most special part, they are still handmade and crafted by Manolo himself.

My favorite quote by him:

“About half my designs are controlled fantasy, 15 percent are total madness and the rest arebread-and-butter designs.”

Recent Designs:

this was from is summer 2010 collection

Quote of the Day:

"You only live once, but if you work it right, once is enough."

Poetry:

This is from an online writing contest I had entered, it was suppose to be about your self using opposites:

I look in the mirror to see a face.

Deep down into those light brown eyes,

I am.

I am who i am, no one can judge.

I am strong, but i am weak.

I am beautiful, but i am grotesque.

I try and make things work,

I try and shine a light, but sometimes it just doesn't work.

I am a poet, who wishes she can write.

I am a child, who puts up a fight.

I write lyrics to be heard,

to tell a story of what i am.

But in the end its no happily ever after

its just me,

and that all i can be.

This was something I wrote awhile back, when I was really upset because of my friend being so far away:

And I would run miles for you.
Miles
Minutes
Hours
Days
Weeks
Months
Years.
I would run forever to get to you,
forever because I love you,
forever because I need you.
No matter how long it takes,
I will get to you.

All the grass that separates us
mixed with all the air
creates an atmosphere
of space.

That I will have to fight,
to get to you.

Letters

I've given up on writing those letters, I started to get bored

If you have any suggestions on what to do next

TELL ME!!

Hot Mess

Honesty box on facebook is kinda lame, I rarely ever check it. But the other day I came upon it and I found myself with five comments.

Apparently my question was "What song do I remind you of?" Two out of the five said the song Hot Mess, now one said I reminded them of Hot Mess by Ashley Tisdale and the other said I reminded them of Hot Mess by Cobra starship. (both great songs) there reasoning was simply "because you are one" or "well your a mess, and your hot so it works" So I started wondering...am I a hot mess?

I have come to the conclusion that I am most definitely a mess, always have been. But hot? I can't call myself hot..i find that weird. So whatever, the point of this story is...well there isn't one. But I want to figure out if being a "Hot Mess" is a good thing or bad thing? SO HELP ME OUT!

give me your opinion.

Day #14: Someone you drifted from

Im skipping day 13!

Dear Jenna,

I don't really know what happened, we where best friends we danced together.. we did everything together. We've known each other since we where in dippers and we where best friends ever since. Then one day when we got older we just lost touch. It was really sad. I miss you a lot. We always had so much fun! I remember the time we made a tarp pool in your backyard or when we made up the "boat game" when we pretended we where orphans living on a boat..."hello" I'm pretty sure that was the scariest thing that ever happened to me. I wish we could just hangout again, but every time we try to are plans fail. It sucks. But I guess are lives just don't match up anymore, but maybe one day they will..so for now we will wait!

lots of lovee

Geena